I am a Sucker Of Life?

Someone just called me a “sucker of life”. Alright! The thing is, that person happens to be someone who means a lot to me. That hurts, Dude! So what really happened here? Me and two friends went to see the latest Bond movie. Not really a big Bond fan though! It was OK movie. However what happened there is what triggered all this. We were sitting together, watching movie. These two were talking about it and I felt ignored. I didn’t like this because none of them tried to engage me in talking. I tried getting in but was not successful. Not that it was their fault. I guess I didn't try enough. This increased my feeling of “feeling ignored”. Right or wrong, but this is how I felt. And that made be grumpy. So after the movie when we were coming back, I did not feel like talking and I knowingly didn’t talk. I am a human, man! I have feelings. I tend to get grumpy, I tend to feel ignored even though it might not be what the other people knowingly do. Even though it might be totally wrong, but I do. But does that entitle me to be "a sucker of life"? Coming from someone special, it makes me think am I really so? A sucker of life that is! Indeed do I make people feel so bad that let them make such strong reaction. Is it really that big of a problem with me? And if it is how do I handle it? Should I not "feel ignored" in such situations?

My this Sunday

Today is Sunday and it is already noon! My sunday is yet to begin! I make plans and they never materialise. Thought of doing some work, but got busy with usual internet surfing. Have a big job of managing my life, with three important tasks at hand, do a sincere enough work for phd, find a job, find a life-partner. which one of them takes precedence, dont know...but all are equally important however I am tired of at least of the last one and a little scared abt second one. life is not easy, but then who said it was..walking along a misty road, all seems hazy and everything seems difficult. but then hey wait a second, havent you encountered this feeling, this mist along the route before! and you have overcome it in past! So what the hell, let it be now! however do remember it is not the situation but the attitude towards a situation that matters in the long run. OK we have problems, nothing seems to be going right, not a faint silver lining on the horizon. OK the phd work seems to be going horribly wrong like a big planned disaster, the job scene seems non-existent, and there seems to be no man on this planet for me....but hey most of this comes from your attitude towards these situations in life....try being a little positive, a little different...a little tolerant of situation, accepting it and improving it by imroving your attitude towards it. this is life and it is not easy, but you are a traveller and you will walk into the mist and the path will become more clear and more fun if you are not scared of haze from far away...and yes u have a code to analyse, dont u, stop surfing and start debugging...we see u later!